I have been making more blankets and enjoying it - it may sound silly but I feel very connected to Gracie while I am doing it - like encouragement. I wish I could articulate it better - but there is a joy and peace while I am doing it.
I will not fool myself in to thinking that I am through the hard part - did that before. I have felt stronger the last few days - but I know we are coming in to a difficult time with her birthday and Christmas so close together - we'll just take 1 day at a time for now. I know how quickly I can cry - how underneath there is still so much that is raw pain - but the last few days have been good and I am not feeling as weighed down as before. I didn't even need to sleep 12 hours a night over the weekend.
I keep hearing more and more little girls being called Gracie or Grace - I had no idea how popular the name was. I have really been hearing it a lot more lately - so I've decided that when I do - she is just letting me know she's still with me.
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