Well I don't have a lot of patience for people I am working with right now and EVERYTHING feels so personal. I am quick to anger and then it brings on tears which only makes me more angry. It is just a very busy time at work and we don't seem to be working together, but rather every person for themselves. Feels like drowning.
I don't think I am in a space that can really differienate between the "normal stuff" at work and my own junk - it all feels like the same.
I talked with a good friend today who really got my feelings of depression and how hard it is to make it through the day. I always thought that a person could get themselves out of a depression if they just realized it. Well trust me, I've realized it and yet still can't pull myself out of it - not really anyway. I can make myself do things but everything is hard and overwhelming. So I am just going to try and do what I can and let the rest go for now, quite frankly even that seems like work. I am just going to take it one day at a time.
At least I have talked with my husband and he is very understanding -I am luck and grateful to have him in my life.
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