Today I attended my twin nieces birthdays - lots of kids around. There was a baby girl - 6 1/2 months and she had no problem coming to me - a complete stranger, her family was suprised. It was fun to play with her and yes I kept wondering about what Gracie would be doing - but I never confused who I was holding with Gracie and it felt good to hold another baby and be able to enjoy it. I have always loved babies, cuddling, feeding, rocking - all of it. It was good to be able to do it again. I admit though I was a little jealous of the grandmother who has this sweet baby to enjoy and love and I wished I had my Gracie back.
I seemed to have handled it fine - it didn't put me a depressed mood or anything - it was just fine. I consider this progress for now - even it is only for the day.
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